I’m A Bad Person
I really need to be understanding about the fact that everyone is sad to see me leave. It’s better than the alternative, right? I mean, if everyone was like, “Wow! It is SO GREAT that you’re moving all the way to Washington!“… it wouldn’t be saying anything good about me as a person.
But honestly, I really do just want everyone to be super happy and excited for me. I need them to be. I’m still just a weak, pathetic, poor excuse of a human being who needs reassurance that I’m pleasing my parents in order to feel good about myself. And yet, it’s so damn stupid. I shouldn’t feel that way.
Arg. I’m emotionally retarded or something. Must be because I’m sleeping in my old bedroom. The old memories seeping out of the walls and lulling me to restless sleep have disconnected my logical thinking synapses. Or whatever.
PROZAC! HELP ME! FAIL ME NOT IN MY TIME OF NEED!
Current Mood:
Confused
September 1st, 2009 at 9:33 pm
I’m super happy and excited for you to get up here!!! But it’s also for selfish reasons… I miss you! :-*
September 1st, 2009 at 10:24 pm
Just remind the people who are sad that they can always visit!! Either at your house, or at a hotel; that in this day in time, seeing your friends and loved ones are just a skype away!
September 2nd, 2009 at 12:34 am
It’s not your job to please your parents. It’s your job to live your life well to the best of your abilities for you, your husband and your kids and that’s exactly what you’re doing. Everyone can have whatever feelings they’re having – those feelings belong to them, not you. You are only responsible for you. And you’re perfect, just the way you are. love you lots.
September 2nd, 2009 at 8:51 am
I think it’s totally normally to want your parents approval during situations like this, I know I would. I don’t purposely try to please my mom, but I like knowing that she approves and in someway supports my choices.
September 2nd, 2009 at 8:58 am
*sending positive vibes* well.. as many as I can spare atm.
September 2nd, 2009 at 8:58 am
I am sad to see you leave, however, more than that, I’m glad that you’re doing what you want to do to better your life. I’ll miss the random parties that we drink too much wine at. You’re not a bad person, just because you can’t please everyone. You never will be able to. You have to live your life for yourself, and now, for your husband and children. Everyone else will just have to figure out where and how they fit into your new life. Personally, I look forward to visiting you in Seattle, and seeing you when you come here.