Things That Annoy Me About Myself

  1. I’m missing a link in my brain when it comes down to getting to bed at a decent time.  As a result, I’m freaking tired as hell most days.
  2. I can’t organize clutter to save my life.  The crap in my cabinets is perfectly arranged in true OCD fashion, but dammit… I just can’t seem to do the same with the mess on the counter tops.
  3. I suck at calculus.
  4. I’ve got degrees in three different majors, but I’m not doing a damn thing with a single one of them.
  5. I’m a sore loser.
  6. I get bored quickly if there isn’t some sort of chaos or crazy shit happening in my life.
  7. Why on earth do I have to take medication to stay stable?  It’s not fair.
  8. I can’t stop chewing the skin around my nails off.
  9. I obsess about stupid, pointless things that don’t make a damn difference.
  10. I’m a morning person.  It’s disgusting.

Tell me… what annoys you about yourself?

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9 Responses to “Things That Annoy Me About Myself”

  1. LaRaeven Says:
    November 4th, 2009 at 12:54 pm

    1. My OCD! What happened to make this light bulb all of a sudden turn on? Can’t it burn out already. It has been over 2 years now since I had my daughter.. I guess it isn’t postpartum anymore? Does this mean I am stuck with it??

    2. I am scared of being successful.

    3. I have stopped living and instead I am just trying to survive. What happened to the carefree girl? Oh I know she grew up and had kids!

    4. I procrastinate and rarely finish anything.

    5. I am not a very good friend. I get distracted easily and forget to be caring towards those that love me.

    6.. maybe I will finish this later .. (maybe not)

  2. Kathryn-the-Great Says:
    November 4th, 2009 at 1:05 pm

    1. I have pretty bad anxiety and when it acts up I start getting really paranoid: I think I’m being talked about and conspired against.

    2. I have a horribly difficult time forgiving people, even if they feel horrible.

    3. I dwell on bad events in my past for a really long time- sometimes years.

    That’s it… don’t want to think too hard about all my faults or I’ll get down on myself.

  3. adayinthelife Says:
    November 4th, 2009 at 2:07 pm

    I am so with you on 1, 7, and 9 :( It’s not fair to us… all those chemically balanced people drive me nuts!

  4. Tamra Says:
    November 4th, 2009 at 2:30 pm

    I know. The fact that I’m jealous of them doesn’t help.

  5. Linda Says:
    November 4th, 2009 at 2:43 pm

    On topic number 2…did you know that is a result of trauma in our early years referring to a post from you a few days ago. It’s from not being able to control the outside world so we control as much of the inside as we can. I think it’s strange…but I totally do the same thing. Interesting…

  6. Tamra Says:
    November 4th, 2009 at 2:49 pm

    Linda- I had no idea, but that sure explains a lot. I’ve never been able to understand why everything behind closed doors, or my anal, impeccable scrapbooking, etc, is clutter-free BUT I struggle with messiness everywhere visible. It has never made sense to me.

    That’s really interesting, and it makes me feel a little better because it helps me understand that it’s probably not just because I’m a disgusting slob. Thank you for the insight… it’s definitely something I’m going to have to bring up with a therapist to see if I can get past it.

  7. Nobody Says:
    November 4th, 2009 at 7:11 pm

    - my complete inability to finish anything if i tell someone that i’m doing it. it’s like leftovers from my days rebelling against my parents… if someone expects something from me, then i lose all motivation to get it done.

    - i’m the opposite when it comes to the kitchen. my cabinets are a wreck, but i can’t stand to have a messy counter. i don’t mind, though.

    - i hate my mood swings. my hormones go batshit nuts at least once a month. it’s not pretty.

  8. James Says:
    November 5th, 2009 at 1:53 pm

    1. I can be a terrible procrastinator on things that are important.
    2. I suffer from sudden, unexplainable lapses in self-confidence that really mess with me and send the wrong message to those I love the most.
    3. I have a tendency to get stuck in anal, stick-up-the-ass engineer mode.

  9. Linda Says:
    November 6th, 2009 at 11:30 am

    Tamra – I totally thought it was interesting. I had a roommate who used to put her cherioos in my impeccably arranged cabinet…it drove me CRAZY! When I talked with my therapist about it she explained the whole connection and it totally made sense. Now when I am about to go insane on something stupid like the silverware not being aligned correctly I say to myself…’its about more than the cheerios!’