That Stupid Secret “They” Never Tell You

Today I am obsessing like crazy over my insecurities.

http://www.elle.com/Life-Love/Sex-Relationships/The-Ring-of-Fire

Beautifully stated.  I can relate, except to the last part where she seems to come to terms with her sexuality and the state of her body.

Please just shoot me.  I can’t deal with myself today.

I think I need a medication adjustment.  Or a new freaking brain.  And I’ll take a new vagina while I’m putting in requests.  One that has never been used, abused, traumatized, or an organ that I hate.

Current Mood:Sad emoticon Sad

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2 Responses to “That Stupid Secret “They” Never Tell You”

  1. Nobody Says:
    November 19th, 2009 at 3:03 pm

    if you find a place selling all those things, send me the url so i can mail order a new body and attitude. or maybe just some really good meds. (((hugs))) i can totally sympathize today.

  2. Rosanne Says:
    November 19th, 2009 at 11:27 pm

    Sounds like you’re being hard on yourself today. These are the times that it’s most important to be gentle and loving with yourself – in the ways that you are gentle and loving and accepting with your daughters – it’s a good model for you to think about. In some ways, you are re-parenting yourself these days. You’ve had the experiences that you’ve had in your life – nothing can change that. And that was then, this is now and you get to process these things as an adult and a wife and a mother and with the help of therapy and exercises and medication and a loving husband. Keep breathing. Keep loving yourself. If you need another copy of “Learning to Love Yourself”, I can email it to you. I still encourage you to read it aloud every day – it’s made a big difference for me. I always applaud your courage in speaking out in the way that you do and in facing your fears and insecurities. We all have them – it’s just a matter of how you choose to deal with them. I love you very much.