A Surprisingly Sane Blog

It took a few days, but I think I am finally starting to stabilize.

Tuesday I had a complete and utter mental meltdown, as you could probably tell from the post I wrote.  When the suicidal thoughts started smothering me and the obsessive-compulsive self-revulsion hit me upside the head and knocked me my on my ass, James pulled up the medication warnings on my Prozac and we realized that my freak-out was most likely a result of the dosage change.

My doctor had warned me it might happen, but when I was in the midst of it, I couldn’t see it.  She told me that if it did indeed happen, then I needed to bump my dose back up an extra 10mg every other day… and if that didn’t do the trick, then I need to be back on my old dosage.

Two days later and an extra 10mg every other day, and I’m feeling less neurotic and irrational and much more like I can handle putting one foot in front of the other again.

I’m sorry for concerning so many people, and I really appreciate those who have contacted me with kind words.  Thanks for all the support I’ve received the last few days.  You have no idea how much it means to me.

Now ,I just have to keep my head on straight.  Don’t worry, I’ll be back to my normal, sarcastic, sick-humored self shortly, and I’ll cook up something good to bitch about on the internet.  Currently, I’m just trying to get myself back into the swing of things.

I think I’ll go get my nails done before I teach a dance lesson this evening.  Then I’m going to groove to some badass tunes later.

Sans too much rum and coke and wine this time. I don’t need to add “alcoholic” to my list of severe mental illnesses.

Current Mood: Mischievous