A Surprisingly Sane Blog

Although having postpartum depression sucked ass much more than just about anything else I’ve ever experienced, good has come from it.

Sometimes, I have to remind myself of this fact so that I don’t feel angry with myself for falling victim to something so out of my control.

Here’s a list of the positives I’ve experienced since developing such a painful mental disorder.

1. We realized we needed a serious change of atmosphere and we moved to Seattle. That means we went from living in a place we both hated and a life we never saw improving to a city that we’re madly in love with and a home with ample opportunity for both of us.
2. James and I started some much-needed therapy, which has helped us both greatly.
3. I’ve learned to ask for help (though still reluctantly).
4. I am unafraid to admit my frustrations with parenthood and myself openly.
5. I’ve met all kinds of amazing people over the internet who have similar struggles.
6. I enjoy dancing again.
7. I’ve learned to appreciate beautiful moments more than I ever thought possible.
8. My kids are worth it, even though it was difficult for me to see that when I was at my worst, and I am here for them to remind me just how amazing they really are every single day.
9. I don’t feel like a bad person for questioning things about religion that I never dared to ask before.
10. I am learning how to open up about traumatic events that have happened in my life.

I’m missing a gazillion things on that list, but those are the top ten that come to mind immediately.