Thank God That Shit Is Dead and Gone

The entire year of 2009 was pretty much a massive pile of shit that is better left behind to never be smelled again.

Well, not the entire thing. Some absolutely amazing happenings made the year worth living. Moving to Seattle, buying our beautiful house, meeting some of the coolest people on the face of the planet, and all of the support I received from my internet buddies and blog readers have been some of the best experiences of my life so far. However, despite all the good that 2009 brought, the bad that I dealt with certainly made it one hell of a difficult year.

This time last year, I had no intentions of setting any goals or resolutions for 2009. New Year’s Day ended with me having a severe postpartum-depression/anxiety/OCD/paranoia/ etc.-induced nervous breakdown at a hotel in Palm Springs. James and April and I were there for a dance competition, and I have no recollection of what happened that trip aside from the complete mental meltdown that nearly ended in me killing myself. I hated myself so much that I felt ill every time I saw a mirror, and I couldn’t stop obsessing about embarrassing details of my postpartum body over which I had no control.

New Year’s Day marked rock bottom for me last year, and recovering from the smothering postpartum mental illnesses has been at the forefront of my life ever since then.

Despite all the wonderful things that happened during 2009, that year will always be marked as the most stressful freaking year I’ve survived to date. All I can say is thank God it’s over.

Here’s to hoping 2010 is a fabulous year. So far, I’m thinking it will be.

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4 Responses to “Thank God That Shit Is Dead and Gone”

  1. Mia Says:
    January 1st, 2010 at 7:47 pm

    This was definitely one of my worst too. Even with the fun of getting married.

  2. Rosanne Says:
    January 2nd, 2010 at 9:46 pm

    I have a slightly different perspective for you. 2008 was actually the more difficult. In 2009, you figured so many things out for yourself, made some incredible changes, moved to your dream house/dream state, and reclaimed yourself as a dancer and competitor. And 2010 is only getting better.

  3. Kimberly Says:
    January 3rd, 2010 at 6:10 am

    Look at how far you’ve come. Surviving through a “massive pile of shit” is pretty damn amazing in my book. Give yourself credit that you were still standing…well unless you had a few drinks :P …at the end of the year ready to take 2010 head on.

    Your strength is very inspirational to many people including myself. You deserve all the best in 2010!!!!

    PS ~ For someone who trudged through a massive pile of shit, you smell pretty darn good. Hee hee ;)

  4. Misty Says:
    January 4th, 2010 at 11:18 am

    2009: “the most stressful freaking year I’ve survived to date”…the point is, you SURVIVED!!!!!!! You beat it! Your strength is an inspiration to us all, T. Here’s to a much better 2010!!! *hugs*