A Surprisingly Sane Blog

(While balancing with one foot on top of that freaking half-ball-thing, the other leg stretched out in front of me, and both hands out for balance.)

Will Ferrell: You know, you can stop curling your fingers. There’s nothing for you to grab onto. (laughs)

Me: (gritting my teeth) Shut up

(More laughter from Will Ferrell)

Me: Trust me, you do NOT want to meet my roundhouse punch.

Will Ferrell: Well, it wouldn’t be the first time I’ve been punched by a female.

Me: (Sweating and gasping while still trying to balance on that damn torture-device) Yeah? Well, it’d probably the the last.

Will Ferrell is trying to kill me, and he’s really asking for a good kick in the groin while he’s at it.

James spoke with my psychiatrist this morning regarding the ridiculous number of yucky and dangerous side effects I’ve been experiencing since I started taking the Wellbutrin. Long story short?

Get Tamra off that drug FAST. It’s a dangerous one for her. Suicidal thoughts, shaking, and irrational anger are danger signs. Duh.

So… to try to combat the lack of desire for sex I feel when I’m taking my best dose of Prozac, James and I are going to a couple for couple’s therapy… no, I didn’t repeat “couple” by accident. We will be seeing a married couple that does psychiatry and psychology, a reference from the sex therapist that my doctor recommended.

My apologies. I know I scared a lot of people, and that really sucks. I have been a serious shithead lately, and I have no excuse other than the medication, which is a crappy, pathetic excuse. I’m working on being nicer…

…but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop being a sarcastic bitch. It’s just who I am, and part of my charm. I’ll go back to just making fun of myself and stereotypes, though.

Holy crap… who knew that standing on a wobbly-ball-thing could hurt SO FREAKING BAD?!

Seriously? Personal trainers are some sadistic folk for sure.

But dammit, I am hoping to have one hell of a rockin’ body by the time I have to step foot on a Hawaiian beach for my sister’s wedding in May.

Current Mood: Cool

Seek medical attention right away if any of these SEVERE side effects occur when using Wellbutrin:

Severe allergic reactions (rash; hives; itching; difficulty breathing; tightness in the chest; swelling of the mouth, face, lips, or tongue, unusual hoarseness); blurred vision or other vision changes; changes in sexual desire or ability; chest pain; confusion; dark urine; delusions; fainting; fast or irregular heartbeat; fever, chills, or sore throat; hallucinations; hearing problems; menstrual changes; new or worsening mental or mood changes (eg, concentration problems, depression, panic attacks, aggressiveness, agitation, anxiety, impulsiveness, irritability, hostility, exaggerated feeling of well-being, inability to sit still); red, swollen, blistered, or peeling skin; seizures; severe headache or dizziness; severe or persistent joint or muscle pain; severe or persistent nausea, vomiting, or stomach pain; severe or persistent nervousness, restlessness, or trouble sleeping; shortness of breath; suicidal thoughts or attempts; tremor; unusual swelling; yellowing of the skin or eyes.

Source: http://www.drugs.com/sfx/wellbutrin-side-effects.html

I’ve outlined the effects I’ve been experiencing that keep increasing in severity since I started taking this new drug. I feel like I can barely remember yesterday or the day before, and my head is pounding. I keep waking up screaming in the middle of the night.

This morning, I told James I feel like I need to check myself into a hospital. He said he was on the verge of taking me himself. He is staying home because the influx of suicidal thoughts and visions of how I want to do it are becoming uncontrollable.

Stupid drug. I knew I was right when I told my doctor I didn’t think it was a good idea to add that to the Prozac. I was a fool to believe her when she said she was pretty sure I’d be pleased with the result. Damn thing hasn’t even changed my libido, except maybe killing it even more, and that’s the whole reason I started it in the first place.

Current Mood: Alarmed